巴西女孩玛丽娜的静修训练体验和心得

按：5月30日到6月1日三天时间里，正在辛庄附近的上苑艺术馆做驻馆艺术家的两位巴西女孩玛丽娜和婕奈娜和两位中国的学员参加了三和静修中心的静修工作坊。以下是玛丽娜的静修体验总结。经她许可译成中文发于此处（附原文）。婕奈娜的总结将于下一次发表。

我在中国经历的最有收获的事情之一是跟随金振豹博士学习静修。在他告诉我说这个训练能够帮助我理解自己的身心之后，我决定参加在三和静修中心举行的工作坊。在这三天里我和另外几位象我一样对打坐一无所知的人们练习静修并交流。

我来自巴西，在一个完全不同的文化当中长大。静修对我来说是另外一种知识体系。它让我以一种具体而感性的方式理解自己身体里发生的活动。与“西方”科学强调身体之最为可见的方面不同，道家静修关注身体里能量的流动。一开始这对我来说太抽象了。但第一次尝试我就意识到我完全能够非常具体地感受到它。

金博士介绍给我们的静修训练很简单。我们需要花些时间关注自己的呼吸，尤其是要延长呼的部分。过了几分钟身体就开始发生变化。我感到胸、头和手都开始发热，并开始出汗。口腔里唾液分泌增加，心脏跳动也加快了。我开始感觉到身体里面有强烈的能量流动。每一次静坐过程中都能感觉到很多东西。有时候我感到身体变轻了，象是漂浮在空中，有时候感到自己和一股上下循环流动的能量一起共振。

在最初几次静坐时，我背部许多年前受过的旧伤出现疼痛。这干扰了我的注意力。但我仍然尽力关注我的呼吸。经过几次静坐之后，我感到我的身体自动地调整到一个更舒服的姿势，我背部的疼痛开始消退。

在静坐训练过程中会穿插其它身体训练。我们会做身体拉伸，以及以其它姿势静修。我们体验了站桩和行禅。这些练习对我很重要，让我能够感受到我的身体在不同状态下的反应并增强控制自己身体的能力。

经过几天的静修训练之后，我意识到我可以控制能量流动的速度和方向。我越来越能够把注意力集中到自己的呼吸上，体验到静修过程中身体的丰富感受。与我一开始所想象的有很大不同的是，这个经验表明，我的意识总是存在的，与我的身体的每一个变化发生互动。金振豹博士向我们解释身体的感受、情感和意识是如何紧密相关。通过静修训练，我能够以十分具体的方式感受到这种关联。

静修是我在这次中国之行当中最美妙的体验之一。它帮助我改善注意力，更有能力处理焦虑。它教会我如何通过静修管理自己的能量并改善自己的身体状态。而且，通过静修我非常具体地了解到一种不同的文化和不同的思维方式。

谢谢您让我有这样的经历。

M. D. (巴西，圣保罗)，视觉艺术家，2016年5月30日-6月1日

One of the most enriching experiences I had in China was learning and practicing meditation with Dr. Zhenbao Jin. After some conversations we had about the way this practice would help me to understand my own body and mind I decided to participate in a workshop in Sanhe Meditation Center. Those were three days of talks and practices with a small group of people like myself, to whom meditation was something yet unknown.  

As a Brazilian woman, molded by a completely different culture, the contact with this other system of knowledge taught me to perceive the activities in my body in a concrete and sensible way. Differently from “western” sciences, that prioritize the most tangible aspects of the body, Taoist meditation focusedon the flow of energy within it. In the beginning it all seemed very abstract to me, but after the first experience I realized I was completely capable to feel it in a very concrete way.

The meditation exercises to which we were introduced were simple. Wespent some time trying to concentrate on our own breathing and making some effort to prolong the time of expiration. After some minutes it started to happen. I felt my chest, head and hands warmer and sometimes I began to sweat. My mouth salivated and my heart started to beat faster. The feeling of an intense energy movement inside my body was after all something palpable. Plenty of sensations took place on each meditation section. Sometimes I felt lighter, like I was floating up in the air, sometimes more vibrating witha n intense flow of energy going up and down.

In the first sessions I experienced a small pain in my back that dates from many years. It was difficult to concentrate, but I made an effort to focus on my breathing despite that. However, after some attempts I perceived my bodywas naturally shifting to a better posture, and, in the late
sections, my pain started to fade.

The meditation sessions were always interposed with other physical exercises. We used to stretch the body and meditate in otherstances. We experienced stand-up meditation and walking meditation. These exercises were important for me to perceive how my body behaves in different situations and to control it in order to provide stronger and physical resistance.  

After some days of meditation I realized I could control the pace and the direction the energy flowed. It was easier and easier to focus in my breathing and experience the sensations that meditation produced in me. Much differently from what I thought it would be, the experience proved to me that my consciousness was alway spresent, paying attention to each movement of my body. Dr. Zhenbao Jin explained to us how body sensations, feelings and consciousness are intimately connected and I could feel them in a completely practical manner.

Meditation was one of the best experiences I had in this trip. It helped me concentrating and controlling anxiety. It taught me how to administer my energy and improve my physical performance when I exercise. Moreover, I learned it in a very practical way by the means of a different culture and way of thinking.

Thank you for providing this experience to me.   

M. D. (São Paulo, SP Brazil) – Visual Artist，5.30-6.1，2016

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